There are so many things in this life that are unknowns, insecurities, and doubts. All of these things are usually paired with a tormenting, twisting feeling in our souls, yelling or whispering the truth. Reality check... do we actually listen? Are we hoping for the universe or God to show us something? Signs on a billboard maybe?
When we reach these puzzling moments, we know what we're supposed to do 80% of the time; in fact, I'm sure all of our lives our spirit has been preparing us to do exactly that... reveal to us, our own truths. If we look deep into the mold of person, it begins from birth. Infants can sense things in womb, and connect with the same intention when born. Every voice, every move, every decision a mother makes will affect the way the baby is welcomed into the world. All our experiences have shaped our intuition and the role it plays in our daily lives. But somehow, we walk away from this innate gift we've been given, it's most likely the only part of human existence that connects us to the earth, and yet we dismiss it, as though it doesn't know any better.
Let's think back to the very first break up we had, seemed like the end of the world, we were shocked, "where did this come from?" we'd ask ourselves. HMMM. But how shocked were we really, we knew exactly where things went wrong. How he/she changed, when he/she changed, the vibe, the energy, all of it but we chose to ignore it. Perhaps we figured we could change the situation, maybe we were over exaggerating what happened, all of these excuses flooded our minds, when our inner voice was the first signal screaming "IT'S OVER!" The signs were apparent all along, and we felt this flutter of intensity whenever we heard our intuition speak to us. Now, it's no harm, no foul; learning and falling is part of the learning process. But I beg to ask, how much pain and wasted time did we need to endure to get the same answer? I definitely could've taken a little less time on the last one, let me tell you... (sorry buddy.)
But this isn't just about relationships, this is about career choices too. Here's a personal example:
I was working for a company for almost 8 years, while I loved it, I was so thankful to have the opportunity as a young single mother, those that mattered to me showed me great appreciation, I was beginning to loathe going to work. That never happened to me, I was completely depleted. Nothing had changed though. I sat and wondered why I was feeling so uncomfortable and unsatisfied, I'd question my coworkers attitudes, my workload, my living situation, but nothing was different about it all. I stayed and stayed until I was just beyond over spent. Finally, I listened to the discomfort, and the loud voice saying "this season is over for you," being so afraid of change I ignored it, over and over again, until I couldn't any longer. I decided to make some changes, I sat with a vision board, set a goals list, and hustled my way into my next phase of life. Insert my art, my photography, and my poetry... insert my joy.
I found it again, the universe and God was shaking me, your time for comfort here id done, get up and move. I couldn't be more happy that I did.
I wanted to share this blog post with you because we all find ourselves running from out truths, and we'd save ourselves so much heartache and stress if we'd begin the process of listening to our spirits, our souls, our hearts. Trust yourself, you are your biggest and most truest friend.
"She decided, she would turn off the world, and turn up her soul"